9:20PM Monday August 2, 2004#
Every time I get new quesitons about the crime, new information from the police, revisits to the scene, I find myself overcome with a new wave of panic. This could be withdrawal talking, but I think there's something real to this paranoia.
Today when I was walking home from work (down Shattuck, not Milvia), I saw a young man who looked too suspicious for his own good. His beady eyes reminded me of those from 2 weeks ago. I was on the phone with Elliot, but my head and (thumping) heart were with HIM. But it wasn't him. Or was it?
Events don't end there. I got a call from the detective tonight. Tomorrow I will be visiting the local police to examine a line-up. I'm fucking scared. But - in some weird way - I have the power now. And maybe that power will be the next phase of recovery.
I still haven't healed.
* I create words when they don't exist but should. The OED actually says this exists, but the meaning is all wrong. Or maybe all right. Here it is: VISCERATION (n.) - good chear, a dole or distributing raw flesh at the death of rich men, or when hogs are killed; also the garbage that Hunters give their Dogs. The last is my fave. And you?
# I am post-dating this blog. It was written at precisely the time and date written above. However, my "borrowed" internet failed me. Again.
Post script: some of you out there scanned over all of the colored words to see if they led to links, of the html variety. Fooled again. Will you ever learn?
Tuesday, August 03, 2004
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Okay, lineup. That's scary. It conjures images of Law and Order (chung-chung!), but I'm sure it's far creepier than that - and that's already creepy. And there will be no Stabler to comfort you (which is a reference I'm sure escapes you as you are sans TV reception).
Okay, I'm back from 21 Jump Street. It was not quite what I expected. Downright pleasant, actually. I was given the run-down about investigations, shown some photos of previously incarcerated/arrested individuals, asked about features about said individuals that were similar/different than the muggers, told about potential live line-ups in Oakland to come, and given reassurance that I DID NOTHING WRONG THAT DAY. A big shout out to the investigations unit in my home town! Their follow-up gives me peace. And they were cute too.
i think "viscerate" or "eviscerate" means to disembowel. was that in the OED?
Yes, viscerate is there. And I actually use that one a lot. But it needs the corresponding noun, I think.
Where did you find it? Interesting read »
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